 Friday, January 26, 2007
over my head out with it, i have super butter fingers(or rather butter jo). AAAAAAHHHHHH.
really not funny. the key was in the lock, and i pushed my chair back. it hit the key, and the key broke; while it was IN THE LOCK. however frantically i tried to poke a paper clip into the hole only made that broken part go deeper in. THANK GOD the drawer wasn't lock, and there wasn't anything important inside(only empty envelopes). but i took uhm, one week to gather my nerves to go to my boss and say "uhh, i think i broke the key in the lock". * break for 3 bites of mash potato from chillis. mmm, my first taste of chillis. at 1.11 am :) thank you lishan's brother marntsing aaahhh, okay, enough of mumble jumble that's been happening to me. let's focus on happier things, like how we're going to PortDickson tomm! after my work! whoohoooo! we is most of the gentings people and then some wheeee whoohoo! the sun(OHHH PPLEEEEAAASSSEEEE LET IT BE SUNNY), beach, and the company. say it with me.. WHOOOHHOOOOOOOOO!!!!! can't wait for work to end. although work is pretty amusing. hahaha AHHHhhh the thought of the aftermath... ..have an awesome weekend you! Sunday, January 21, 2007
you're not that far gone. i realise that my life is full of blooper moments, or in jing's own way of putting it, 'damn shy' moments.
take the other day, when someone was passing out gifts from the boss and she tapped me on the back; my foot entered the dustbin when i was turning and i had to try in a vain attempt to unlodge my foot as well as smile, intro myself and receive the gift in a twisted position. conclusion: don't get yourself into moments like these. or the other day, when jon did his own blooper of spilling his whole bowl of leftovers on himself, and kev choked on his drink(i think). the result? the drink came spewing out(like how we used to do it when we were kids) and hit me; sitting next to him. conclusion: never sit next to kev  or how during lunch, jing parked right in front of the office. So when I came down carrying this box to be shredded, there were these two sales girls looking out the door. I returned their smiles and put the box down before skipping through the door. As I entered the car, (my)boss came down and three of them were just staring at us.  or how, sam burnt all the pictures from my camera into a cd to be passed along with gentings pics. WHICH included 50 odd pictures li shan, li qin and i took in a span of one hour. oh, the damn shyness of it all. all our superbly creative poses, now saved in dan's comp. -.- conclusion: posing is good for you or how i was telling li qin about the time we wrote step's name down for having a tick on his socks(nike) and he didn't want to sign it so she drew a smiley face as saksi. we were debating about the name of the buku kesalahan(prefect logbook) and i said triple K (KKK), while she said triple 9 (999) and we were squabbling until kevin piped up saying that it's actually triple 5 (555). wah, damn shy. conclusion: fighting with li qin will get you nowhere i have been watching so many other movies while trying to watch "night at the museum". it was just like last year, when i watched a gazillion other movies while trying to watch harry potter, WHICH, i never ended up watching. since i came back this time round, i have conquered deja vu eragon the guardian kungfu mahjong 3 pathfinder blood diamond 5/6 are not the happy clappy laughing kind, so poor people who sat next to me get a shock out of me getting shock(huge gasps haha  ) okay, so neither of the above are actually updates. haha. my shopping updates are pretty miserable and pathetic compared to super shopper to which now i'm feeling miserable cos i can count the things i got with my fingers and feet  and still have extra fingers/feet.ok lah, at least i'm still meeting up with people. update: i love meeting up with them? explanation: i love seeing them, laughing with them, laughing at them, getting laughed back, talking bullshit, talking serious, hanging out with them, relaxing with them, getting away with them, eating with them, poking them, posing with them, being in a car with them.. haha further explanation: them is.. the people i've been seeing everyday/some days. too many to name, and too dangerous to forget. the people back home. that sums everything up. hahahaha, have a super one, all! Thursday, January 11, 2007
i'm fine
i'm alive, kicking and well! so much so i have no time to blog, to put it like that. HAHAHAHAHA plus, there is no light here! i can hardly type. *whacks jing ping so many things to talk about! ahhh, maybe one day. replying emails' taken out my breath. hanging out has become a priority. working has become a necessity. so till i have some slack time from slacking! have a good week/month! heehee! Friday, December 22, 2006
since i came back my nose, it runs. coming over before the rain fell. a chair and a bed. and an i tell you my stories you tell me yours. a sudden ring before popping over. another chair and bed session. getting more in depth information. a long hour talk on the phone before meeting two days later. precatching up catching up. long journey to the hospital. car talk on the way. a listening ear rendered. angry and indignant huffs. solutions gathered. bad customer service dinner. good company. long laughs about nothing and everything in particular. an hour long posing. poses and posers created and reunited. we're getting better, if i do say so myself. frantic rushes before the camera flashes and unstoppable giggles with the result. pulling the couch right to the middle of the room, right in front of the tv. turning off the lights and squishing into the couch together. leg rests for each. falling asleep to love actually. flurry of messages before breaking off the one-whole-day-meeting. one to nine of nonstop catching up. one year's doing in 8 hours. mall hopping. meeting your her. it's such a comfortable cycle. open questions, open answers. catching up from where we left off. doesn't feel like i left. non awkward moments. no need to keep saying anything. sharing pain, anguish and laughter. blast to the past. deja vu and eragon. sitting in between. laughing at the same movie moments and commenting at certain points(boy, must we have irritated many). relentless teasing that i can't stop(i will fight back!). whizzing windshields at the push of the indicator. incessantly giggling and weird stares from outsiders. long talk at the park. continuation of i tell you my stories you tell me yours. opening up at 12. swings and seesaws. random flashes of headlights and dim streetlights. neverending mozzies. laughter, seriousness and God. going nonstop 3 hours. news. stoning. dizzy. cold sweat. unsure and confused. prayerfully. hopeful. sad attempt in pooling. distraction. cartalk. screwy msn. phonetalk. unplugged; plugged. random banter. laughingly stupid accusations and painful encounters. spiderman comics at 8 am. long talk in the office. bonding and a very open ear. emotions running thicker than blood. bad planechair position. sore throat surfaces. my nose, it runs.
where the days started and ended, you figure.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
i have a sore throat. when i really get down to it.
and listen to the words. and i think about it really hard before i mouth it. because it means a lot. it's not simply words. words uttered without meaning does not constitute for anything. if it means sacrificing everything, saying it in itself is meaningless. when my actions and lifestyle show otherwise. when i still want.. and i still doubt. people jumping about around you. shouting and screaming. i can't bring myself to so much as lift myself up. when i'm struggling so much. i just can't. when i'm trying to find myself. and how everything in life is supposed to be. or how it should not. or what it is. some i cannot even say because i know i don't mean it. because if this is how hypocritic contradiction is, i think i rank pretty high now. i won't even start thinking about how much the screaming and jumping ones are willing to go through; it's different, being in an atmosphere which encourages everyone to get hyped up, you feel like you can take on anything; and facing a real situation that tears you apart. but that night, try drowning the sight and thoughts of the people surrounding you. and really focus on what i am really doing there in the first place. sigh. Wednesday, December 13, 2006
i have conquered.. since the wednesday i have conquered(and filled my tummy and i have been meeting up with very very important people!) and gone pretty much super broke(and guilty, and not eating extravagantly anymore) with:wed: mamak food(never really ate cuz plane food filled me. btw NO ICE CREAM WHAT IS THIS!! they always had ice cream  )thurs: crispy chicken rice in paramount(where they have super good prawn mee that wasn't open then boo), cendol(taman sea area), kuih muih(the blue and white rice with kaya! and the green and white(santan) kuih), some random restaurant for dinner. fri: dim sum!(taman megah), lucky loke restaurant(serving tai chau(?) hahaha SS4, long time frequented place) sat: A&W's mozza burger(i'm still wondering why i didn't get the coney dog), manhattan fish market(curve's branch has the WORST CUSTOMER SERVICE EVER. really terrible) sun: indian banana leaf chicken(eating using banana leaves as plates!), kim gary's cheese baked rice mon: aleef caterers(chap fan material in taman tun's market, long time frequented place), paddington house of pancakes tues: porridge(hahaha) & lou mai kai, kajang sate(branch in uptown), swenson's ice cream(50% off yo! & split between a few people, heheh) wed: nasi lemak(from DJ) darn it. my thursday and friday is a bit mixed up. anyway, what i still must conquer is: prawn mee. yummm my seafood(the chinese way) OH MY GOSH. i just realised. EGG TARTS!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i'm back in the land where egg tarts are plentiful and not a con money scheme. and i haven't had them YET!!! how could i forget. good job lah. egggggggtarts YUMMM. ok lah, been eating out cuz.. my house has no fridge. yes la sad la. so habitual to go to the kitchen, only to see an empty space where the fridge used to be. ohhh, the disappointment. tv pun takde. so habitual to jump on the couch, and stare at that blank black box. good job lah. seriously, very important! all the way since before i came back, and when i'm back. Tuesday, December 12, 2006
there are some where..
you can live with just having acknowledge each other. you can live with seeing each other once awhile. you can live with just having nonsense(unimportant) chatter. and there are some who have an impact in your life. who you can count on when you have more than nonsense chatter in mind. when something important to you happens and they know about it. who make time for you. and will be there when you need them as much as you will be there when they need you. how blessed are you to have people like these in your life? agreeably, having a number of them that you can count on your fingers is more than enough. i feel like the richest person on earth sometimes :) (other times i don't consist of when i see a beautiful top like the one below that i don't wanna blow my budget on heh) but i don't deny. it takes nurturing. time. money. effort. and for both parties to want the relationship to work. how much are you willing to? Friday, December 08, 2006
shaking.
shaken. God thankful. praise. in dire need to rethink. ----- she steps out, and she feels comfort and alive. her heart's beating faster and she skips. she breaks into a smile. what happened before? when home isn't just home no more. what does it take to change the way things happened around there? submission is just..... unbearable. her thoughts unheard of. how far is he going to take it, before knowing he's pushing them away? far off the point of return.
unconditional love. what is it nowadays? how much do you love someone, to accept them just the way they are and all that they are going to be. not tolerate, but fully accept everything about them. even the part where thinkings clash. unconditional love, that is. when they believed in family first, but he doesn't. it hurt nonetheless. how could he? to turn him down. your blood. do you know what hurt the most? to know that unconditional love doesn't exist. not right here where they stand. the blatant truth. in your face. related but not so, God is. unconditional love, that is. Wednesday, December 06, 2006
ah, right on schedule.
the emo schedule, that is. so predictable lah me. --- it feels different; when we say 'see you' now. because it no longer means 'see you.. in a short while'. no more 'see you tommorrow'. no more 'see you in 5 minutes'. it might mean see you.. in a week or two. a month or two. or.. maybe, let's hope our paths cross again. --- an excerpt from the purpose driven life book: Time is your most precious gift because you only have a set amount of it. You can make more money, but you can't make more time. When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back. Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time. --- there are some which i haven't invested time into, in which i want to. enough of the wants, hey? more needs, please. it's just this mentality, and also attitude that i have in me. i'll tell you over a cuppa one day :) now i get why there is that saying, time is gold(in malay: masa itu emas). wait. or was it 'time is better than gold'. oh wait. or is it 'time is golden'. -.- waaaait! just to show you those paintings on primary/secondary school walls do instill something in you; i remember 'honesty is the best policy' tho! okay okay, emo. sorry sidetracked. as i was saying.. mixed feelings. about going back and staying here. going back - meeting people i haven't seen in a year. fitting back in; yet changing. it took me awhile to really get adjusted again last year. and that's what i'm scared of this year again. but the new memories to make with people you grew up with. staying here - people you see almost every single day. because they become your family. you all look out for each other. you become closer than some that you have known for years in that time frame. uh, yeah that's it. see you soon, malaysian soil! and stuffy air. and the BEAUTIFUL people :) OH GOODNESS I CAN REMEMBER THE STUFFY AIR WHEN I FIRST TOUCHED DOWN LAST YEAR. HAS IT REALLY BEEN ONE WHOLE YEAR!!! oh man. let me go emo now. Tuesday, December 05, 2006
day 5 already coupla days been pretty hectic. packing seems almost done, am now awaiting the arrival of my cs buddies' stuffs at my place, which will be happening tommorrow. and oh! storing away the treasures leroy handed to us whole heartedly. he's going home for good as well! :(
since i have a few moments of free time on my hand(which itches TERRIBLY, burnt badly).. here are some random pictures of my last few days in melbourne!  my very itchy right arm. at the bend; the raw pink skin beneath the dead skin, and the dark patch of my arm. in other words, a very very uneven tan(i love the tan though) because on the other side of my arm, i'm my usual white.  this was during my exam period! hardcore. now everything's almost bare. well, except for the bed, the chair, the table..... and the stuff on them. wait. floor is totally clean. don't mess. it's been less than a week. but i cannot remember what i did. NOOOO. wednesday: dfo essendon with danmak and wenting before he leaves! we got a bit muddled with the directions, and were discussing about it on the tram. OH by golly, don't do that next time okay! a pretty overly friendly girl sitting opposite me started talking to us, and gave us pretty useless directions. and started telling us about her life. okay okay! info overload! we (had to) endure her talk all the way till the stop she told us to, and then took another tram back to where the wine lady(whom we asked directions before we got on the tram) told us to stop. nice people we encounter, nice people we are. and just a tad lost at that moment. hee. last ignite(young adults service) for the year! what happened? a proposal happened. and also 3 interns shared. k let me digress a bit. generally speaking, would you propose to someone in front of a HUGE crowd? that fleeting thought ever run through that maybe she is under some pressure to respond the way expected of her? what if she's just not 100% ready/sure? anyway since they were in the row right in front of me, it was still pretty melting to see her look up to him and mouth "i love you".  fish fish fish! yeah. three of them. and covered in curry paste with lemongrass. mm! k la can't really see the fish yea? credits to kester for cleaning and descaling! fish & quiche(i can make quiche!!) for supper! friday: lunch at Han Guuk Guan. yum! we opted to self bbq our pork+chicken. it was awesome. seriously. good food, good company! very filled stomachs and comfy chairs led to stoning moments and happy sighs.  oh look who's that! it's wendy! look where she's coming out from! uhh.. oops? remember, always look at the door sign before entering. the guy before you may just be leading you on. hahaha  in dfo(direct factory outlet), while i was trying out the top, not for myself. but i got hooked to it! look at it! so pretty! the sleeves are a bit bunched up! and there's a ribbon! it's pretty. and pretty expensive. :( the jean's are mine though. hahaha the top remains in the shop. remember, no cookies and cream frap from gloria jeans bourke st! unless you like yours coldly tasteless. saturday: vic market + oakleigh! heehee kester, tim & i visited oakleigh! land of greeks! fish and chips for lunch, followed by a cuppa and bites at a cafe. yummmm! that took up the whole morning & afternoon! went back to settle business and oh look! garfield's on tv! harry potter's on TV! good (free) food later on noodle box. YUM! sunday: last richmond AOG service for our year! ohhhh, it will be missed. i enjoy RAOG, i do! :)  lifegroup. rockstars. superstars tim, pey-li lala(leader), me, wenting, rohan indian(leader), kester lunch was crazy expensive. dim sum, PJ here i come. wenting, rohan & i, kester for a bit; we ended up walking about the city the whole afternoon and ended at starbucks for a cuppa. java chips yo! the barrista who took my order looked SO familiar. but i cannot place him one bit. can't stand it. where have i seen him before! and he was really nice! monday: richmond doing some last minute browsing, along with tim&kester. whole afternoon it took! morning was more to cleaning up. seems really surreal, this packing to go up. last year's seemed so distant. yet vaguely familiar. beloved simpsons at 7! i forsee this being the last i watch in melbourne for the year. dinner at vietnam noodle house. as the other viet restaurant's next to it has been rumoured to have harboured semen before.  open your mouth and smile REAAAAAAAL wide, slit your eyes REAAAAAL small, and you get two people who look alike heehee. bye leroy :( thank you!  hahaha stoning at melb central before we went to santa claus' home! me, santa claus, wenting, kester, nick, tim  melbourne central is beautiful. at nights! how come we don't stone there more often? red stars, balls and silver circles have been put up and were glittering away all night. the purple swirls on the brick wall looks like peanut butter with jam swirl. yum! and that's the cone(roof) of melbourne central!  bubbly clouds! beautiful sky one day. turned my window knob as much as i could, and grabbed a picture. i love nice sky pictures. melbourne has really clear and beautiful sky & colours. oh my, look at the time! busy day tommorrow! oh my, what a long post. it was supposed to be short. well, it's just many short posts combined. hee. yes i'm still very scared for friday.
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